Saturday, March 26, 2011

Not Quite Dead Yet..

Is anybody still there? No? Ah well, I deserve it! I didn't mean to abandon my blog, it just... happened. I went from being busy, to having the stomach flu (Norwalk... AGAIN!) to having zero creative energy. Excuses, excuses, I know. I hate me. I'm working on a stellar piece about why men can't win, but in the mean time... ok, so I haven't started writing it, but it's in my head. Anyway, in the meantime, here's a poem I found on my old hard drive. I wrote it 4 years ago. I used to write a lot, and this one found its way onto my computer! I like this one. It's called "My Dreams Betray Me" and I could have a hundred different pieces with the same title.

My dreams betray me with visions of you
I want to be her, that girl that you look at
To feel your eyes on me, cover me completely
Denial will keep my feelings at bay
It’s not that hard when I refuse to get hurt
A hard shell has formed
To keep you away
To keep me in
To mask the weakness that grows inside
Too embarrassed to let it show
I hate the girl who cries at night
I hate the one who abandoned me when she needed to stay
Where did I go?

This is a picture I took 4 years ago. I know. Blonde.

Now.. to get cracking on this piece.. Who wants to climb into my head and write it out?


Jewels said...

Love the poem and the picture is hilarious. Glad you are feeling better and thank goodness for twitter because I didn't feel abandoned by you at all! :-) said...

I wondered how you could possibly be tweeting me and making fun of my hockey team but NOT write a post...tsk tsk. were sick. So...valid excuse.

Glad you're feeling better my dear! I hear that burning Flames jerseys is great for making you feel better... ;)

lex [lexinthecity] said...

@ Jewels - Yes thank goodness for twitter! Glad you like my poem, I thought I'd add in a pic from that "era".. haha
@ Ley - Are you trying to send me to my grave early? Or just make me write an anti-Oilers post? Because I WILL!

Katsidhe said...

I'm glad that you're alive. I was thinking that maybe you had a threesome, 'cause you know who is the one to get axed...

Your picture is so cute, lovey, and the poem is very touching.

PorkStar said...

New reader here *waves frantically*

Just found your blog. Very nice poem, which reflects some of the things happening in my life right now.

Off I go to dig around your blog : )

lex [lexinthecity] said...

Kat - Thanks! And I take necessary precautions when delving into those types of situations.

Porkstar - Hi new reader! Um, awesome name by the way.

laurenne said...

I love the picture! You look like you already know it will be posted on the internet one day.


lex [lexinthecity] said...

@ Laurenne - I always keep in mind that it could end up on the internet. Normally it's for other reasons though.. err.. ahem.